Tantrum

Have you ever been so thoroughly and astronomically close to exploding that you can't even understand your own thoughts?  I'm so done.  Done with school, done with people, done with everything that has anything to do with solving the ever-constant issues that evolve with life.  Yes.  This is a tantrum.  I realize that childish vehemence won't really help in this situation, but can someone please tell me why things can't just work out ONE time?  Does everything in life take this much stubborn persistence and fortitude?  I'm determined that the people that have things just "fall into place" are lying or seriously deluded.

I'm so close.  I have to keep reminding myself.  Just a little more, and you'll be done.  But lying to myself doesn't always help, and it never solves the problem.  I have a research proposal due today at 4pm, and I have an impossible amount of work to do on it.  It's in terrible shape, and I'm pretty sure I have no clue what I'm doing.  I have a research paper due next Wednesday at 5pm.  I happen to be slightly more prepared for this deadline, but I need to get at least a 290 out of 300 in order to get the grade that I want in the class because the grading scale is so significantly unbalanced. Following that, I have a final project to create, a reflection to write, and a job to quit.  I have a book read, a job to find in California, a contract to sell, belongings to pack and store, an apartment to clean, and a final to take, all before the end of next week.  I have rent to pay, and an eventual eight hour drive home to make.  Depending on how successful I am at job-finding, I will continue my job search once that drive is completed, deal with the familial issues that await me there, and finally try to consolidate the thoughts in my head. 

That's as far ahead as I can think.  But my problem is that I can only think about everything that is coming my way, and I'm struggling to reel myself in enough to focus on what I need to do now.  I just want to be done.

Please?